i feel so lost and this is the only way that i can vent. when i say life has been great for quite a while now.. it really has and just when it was getting even better, things just took a turn. the last 3 weeks may have been the hardest 3 wks of my life. no one will never know or understand the pain i have endured. i honestly thought i was on the verge of dying, had it not been for my hubby and my mom idk what i would have done. not being able to eat or drink and vomiting all day and night, left me to the point i couldn’t even stand, i had to crawl [barely that] there were times i just wished to die, just for it to all be over with, i thought id never do it but i even questioned my faith. however, at the end still held on to it. now able to eat and drink a little more, feeling my body starting to come back alive [i thought it’ll never happen] it’s so much more going on that has just turned my life completely around for the worse. it has been some what helpful to go on other forums to read women speak of the rare condition and what they have gone through. some have actually died bc of it and others have life long complications [scary] the only good outcome from it all, is that if i never believed my other half loved and cared about me? i know now. he picked up all the slack, being that he works from 11pm to 7am. he would come home, take the little one to school, clean up, do laundry and take care of me. only to get a few hours of sleep before he has to go back to pick the little one up from school. i’ve lost 20 lbs in 2 weeks and i look horrible! i mean horrible but he would still tell me that i look beautiful and he likes my hair the way tha it was [something i haven’t tended to in days] he was so comforting and it showed me that i have picked the perfect one. but still with everything else i feel saddened and i have the slightest clue as to where to pick up the pieces to begin again. it’s been such a nightmare and i wish that’s all it really was but i guess that’s life..
Nursing meeting went pretty well this morning. just need prayers that i get in Jan. 3rd. [pray for me!] i feel sick after my nap..
but my Daily word read: Do not wait; the time will never be ‘just right’. Start where you are, work with whatever is at your command, and better tools will be found as you go along.
and that made me feel good && was right on time. Hope everyone is having a good weekend ;) #bottoms up